So Why Do I Want to Blog?
I love writing. I always have. I love putting pen to paper and seeing what magic (or worthless shit) evolves right in front of me. At one point in my life, I thought I would be a creative writer. (But my other love is math – and that
part of my brain knew I needed a more solid career.) But writing just happens. I have notebooks full of random thoughts, stories, journal entries, flow charts, and who knows what else! So blogging is one place I can put all of it out there (and maybe even hopefully stop wasting millions of trees a year because I can’t stop filling up journals, notebooks, papers, scrap pages, etc, etc, etc.)
To be honest this isn’t my first rodeo. The thing is, my first attempts at blogging were also attempts to be someone I wasn’t. Initially, I thought my life was interesting enough to just blog about (or I thought I was one of those reality show turned blog kind of people), turns out my life is really not that interesting. Then I thought I could blog about all the crafts, learning activities, and things I love to do with my kids. I tried to be supermom, to fit a niche, to not be too weird. (*whispers “I’m weeeiiiird”*) I wanted to project this perfect image. I didn’t want to offend anyone. I was afraid of trolls. I wanted to be this fake perfect person. Now of course, we all know that I really am perfect (cough, cough) but I don’t want to be a persona of myself – or to limit my writing.
In reality, I curse; I fuck things up; I nerd out; I obsess over grocery shopping, over zombies, over Oxford commas, over accounting, and over my kids. I dance in the middle of mall and turn mundane thoughts into songs. I’ve
adopted Jon Stewart’s queen impression as my own and even my kids and a few friends recognize it as such. “Hellooooo.” I’ve taken my kids out to lunch and spent the entire meal making R2D2 or Chewbacca sounds with them. (Yeah, I used “or” because it was actually 2 separate meals.)
I want this blog to be the one place where I can be me without censorship. I still want to write about the wonderful things my kids and I do together, but I also want to write about all of the other wonderful, weird, or colorful stuff swirling around in this crazy noggin of mine. If people don’t like that, well that’s okay. Not everyone likes everything. I’m sorry if I offend anyone or if some of my posts are off the wall or super nerdy. Some will be super domestic, some will be super nerdy, and some will be somewhere in between…or maybe not. But they will all be ME.
Welcome to my little, crazy corner of the internet. Let’s be friends!